It'll be alright in the end.

I feel like I am drowning some days, as if I'm underwater not being able to reach the top as I struggle with the trials in my life but then I look up and I see that hand pulling me out of that ocean of anxiety. God has saved me from countless times of struggles, from my deepest thoughts that sometimes can be so overwhelming. Life is so hard. It honestly is but when we have some sort of faith it makes things that seem so dark become full with light. I remember so many times I fell and I thought it would be impossible to get up but I prayed to him asking him to help me and to my amazement he did. Even the tiniest prayer was answered. I can't count the times my prayers have been heard, it took me long enough to realize that miracles do exist. I find that every time I forget about him he finds a way to remind me he is here. I feel like those times were when I was a teenager and I didn't care about myself or my actions, I didn't care about anything all I wanted to do was be careless, but suddenly trials were thrown at me or so I thought, but they were consequences of my actions. I was stubborn and I would keep falling until I finally reached a point of regret. Regret is such a horrible feeling but it is needed. It makes you human. It makes you humble. Regret brought me back to God and my savior. I hit rock bottom and I knew it was time to change. I asked for his forgiveness and although it took a little while I was able to receive it. I began my journey into the right path next to my savior. I decided I was going to serve him and I prepared for that and then my biggest trial came into my life. Although it did hurt in the beginning and I thought it was a punishment for my actions. I was completely wrong. I now know that we are given trials in our lives to become more humble or to teach others so they don't have to go through the same pain.

As I look back I remember that girl I once was, so scared of life. But now I look at life with a smile. I am truly happy because I have the faith that in the end it''ll all be alright.

Don't let those trials scare you away, just remember you are NOT ALONE.

"And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them."

-Ether 12:27